helpless helping

28Mar08

There it was an IM message at 2am “Hey Ajay, can you help me with this?” replied by “Yeah sure what’s up?”

When you don’t want to speak to someone It can so easily be avoided by the block button. As if life was as easy as IM where all it takes is one button to stop talking to an individual. The feeling of wanting to help other people lies in our most primate instincts of I scratch your back and you scratch mine.

There are two types of people in the world those that constantly ask for help and those that constantly deliver it. The only solace I get for mine is writing my thoughts onto paper or publishing how I feel on a blog.

For the past few months, clouded with thought of everything in relationships. One thing stands true. Stupid risks make life worth living. It’s not a case of do or don’t anymore which just leaves you in wandering in a circle eventuating into nothing. You have to ask yourself whether feelings you have for someone can really happen. If they can’t, then you get it over and done with.

Don’t you hate that?

What.

Uncomfortable silences. Why do we feel it’s necessary to yak about bullshit in order to be comfortable?

That’s when you know you found somebody really special. When you can just shut the fuck up for a minute, and comfortably share silence.

-Mia, Pulp Fiction.

I need to start focusing on myself rather than focusing on others for a change.

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